some people act like angels. some people genuinely are actual angels. angels are generally treated like devils.

the future

Hello my good friends.

You're all superstars and know a vast amount of people, and a vast amount of things across a vast amount of subjects. I'd like to play records and take photographs this year, all over the place (mainly uk also europe+scandanavia). Thoughts, advice, information, logistics, clubs, bars, cafes, festivals, promotion, vacancies, people to talk to, you're mate that owns a warehouse or a venue, costing, pricing, detailed concise specific experience and advice on all these things is what i need. my photographs and music are on this blog: http://tezla7.blogspot.com soon to be improved and upgraded in the next two weeks.

in return i'll help in anyway i can with promotion/photography or participation in anything any of you have going. also if people register an interest i will set up and maintain a passworded blog/website that shares this information between us.

it is a long-term ambition of mine to unite the genius that you are into a strong creative community, to unite creative communities with the audience starved of quality and inspiration by mainstream prescriptive media... but first things first... i need your help.

many thanks,

Will Johnson

williamaj@yahoo.com

the end

it's usually difficult to understand the cryptic nature of the world.

this blog is finished. it's been running over 19 months and that is a big achievement for any person. i'm going to struggle to find another outlet for my creative endeavours, but i'm sure when i do i will be back with a higher quality and greater substance to what it is i want to say. i've become complacent with this and convenience breeds ignorance.

This, what this was, was never about telling people what to do. This, what it was, was about the idea that if you knew what i knew, maybe your life could be easier. Maybe with another idea, a bit of my opinion about the way i see this world you could walk the walk of your life a little easier and maybe avoid some of the glaciers that i've climbed my way out of, to come back and say "don't fall down there!"

of course i'm no pariah and this is certainly and never will be any form of religious or dogmatic text. i've taken a great amount of care and spent a large amount of energy in creating these pages, of which there are 227 posts which averages out to more than 3 posts a week for over 84 weeks.

personally i feel that this is the only thing i've managed to create of any kind of quality that i am actually comfortable with and i'm finishing it because it's not good enough.

this is my stage. so,

i will leave by saying that you shouldn't worry. you shouldn't ever worry. that anything you ever want or could ever want for yourself is achievable. but that thinking about the end will cause you trouble. the ends, the things we see people happy with, the things that we want for ourselves many years down the line take time. the most important thing to do for anyone is to decide. to decide and realise. to really understand what it is you want for yourself what it is you want to achieve to be, or to understand in this life. then, to do it.

doing it is not a daunting thing when you understand that a little every day will not only accomplish those dreams but accomplish everything you ever dreamed of. Rome wasn't built in a day, neither was it all destroyed in one day.

when things are difficult, which they always will be in a realistic world, you should reassure yourself that if you accomplish what you aim to do today, then the future is assured. even if you don't, then tomorrow is another day. take tremendous peace in that fact.

i've just taken an intermission, two Jehovahs Witnesses pressed my doorbell and came into my room. i took the time to take apart their philosophy and softly put important things in their heads. they were two young men on their way preaching what they believe to be their personal philosophy and i'm sorry it's so submissive for them. i've no doubt that they will think and that i've have changed their course of life for the better. what greater triumph?

the end is important in all things, and there's no greater challenge to an artist than decision, no greater volition for mankind than making the right choice.

with the greatest wishes i wish that you all understand and accomplish your personal ambitions.

will

advice

if philosophy be the governance of collective thought, then conceptual euphemism is pointless. i do not know who i am to other people, only what i am to myself. in the grandest scheme other peoples' opinions are unimportant. i do not know how to better other people, only how to better myself. an that greater morals are foresaken for what it to be considered the personal good.

blogger

until i've found a suitable blog client to switch to, i've switched off comments for this blog. it's getting awkward to improve or do simple things like put up decent quality pictures, they're starting to look like facebook quality images hosted through google blogger and im getting tired with it like i am a lot of things. suggestions are welcomed: tumblr is supposed to be good, as is wordpress etc, but not sure i like either.

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souf

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school

i remember walking into the rival school's entrance hallway. it was grand, panelled mahogany wood. beautiful. a facade for parents to walk though if they ever decided to visit their kids. i remember the way we used to walk through there, admiring the wood and the piano and the placement and such. admiring things the way they were, and at the same time thinking "we're going to smash these boys to pieces"

you see for as long as i played rugby, as long as i was a school boy, i played for and was a part of the toughest team in the country. for a long long time there was no greater pleasure for me than to hit a person so hard they couldn't get up because they couldn't remember their name. that primal aggression never troubled me, but it didn't last. as i grew older it faded, and a small boy cannot fell young men without a killer attitude.

i'm comfortable that that was the way my mind came to be, although there's no doubt any will has ever left.